As I have wound through this January, I’ve been reading blogs by others who sew. Several bloggers made a summary of what they accomplished in 2013, complete with photos and stories; others set out goals for the year 2014.
And I have been asking myself the question: would it make sense for me to set goals? I thought, I could decide to sew five quilts, to create even 1/4 inch seams, to create more perfect triangles, but in the end, I realized as I was sewing that what I prefer is the process of sewing, creating, and entertaining new ideas. And if I set specific goals for the year, either I will feel compelled to accomplish them,thus putting myself in a position of having to sew something I am not interested in. And that in itself would be a stressor. These days I have been happily making traditional quilts, and soon I will go back to making landscapes. I don’t want to make goals and then find that I am not interested in doing those projects anymore.
I prefer to ‘go with the flow’. And I realized that this was true precisely this weekend, as I sat quilting the quilt by hand, sewing on the borders and binding, and loving the slow, meditative quality of hand-stitching the binding. And this quilt has many things wrong with it, and perhaps I’ll never have a quilt that wins a prize in a quilt show. I am fine with that. I love the piecing and binding, the auditioning of fabric for a landscape that is in my mind, and also trying something that does not work out.
And so I have perhaps two more nights to complete the binding for this quilt, which I hope to give daughter number 2 on her 23rd birthday Sunday. It’s imperfect; my stitches are not always of equal size, my blocks not always precisely squared, and my seams are a bit off. But I love my shaking stitches and off-kilter blocks. That’s one of the things I love about creating. It’s not always about ‘getting it right’ as much as the process of making it.